SIGH.
I feel like giving up, man. I can't even scold properly. How am i supposed to lead the section? I feel like shit, once again. but, i keep telling myself to endure. I keep convincing myself to be motivated, to be optimistic. But hey, I realised my efforts are all in vain. I'm too fierce, they give attitude, too nice, they trample on me. Is this how it is when the previous section leaders were still in charge? I never thought it was THIS difficult. The members seem so dead. Why? Is it too tiring? Too boring? That they feel so dead? I keep thinking, ' Am i a bad leader? Am i not doing my job as an SL?' And, that Wednesday incident ticked me off but, only for a short while. I know, they don't like to get scolded. But, what can we do? Attitude, come late, want to pon band, no motivation, want to quit band. So, why am I fighting a losing battle? Why is this batch members unmotivated? Sigh, I want to do something about this.. But, what? I don't want to scold but, your actions really made me do it. Why join band, if you're not passionate about it? If you don't put your heart and soul into it? Is it just for the CCA points? Think about it. What happened to the motivation? Are we going to start from scratch cz of this? Please think about it.