I don't know why. But, I'm feeling rather pessimistic right now. Maybe cz of everyone's nasty comments.. I know I'm fat. I know I'm ugly. I know I'm not pretty and not even average! I know it all! I don't need you people to tell me that. So what if I'm 'happy' on the outside? That doesn't mean I'm happy in the inside.. I DIDN'T ASK FOR MYSELF TO LOOK LIKE THIS. I thought that, all these comments will eventually stop. But how wrong i was. It kept on going and going. And yeah, i totally lost confidence in myself. Lost confidence in everything i do.. I even lost confidence in singing. I thought that I should pucker up and sing but then, those comments came again. I'm seriously starting to think that everyone is lying to me. I don't have the up-to-standard vocals right? Then just say it.. Why lie to me? Always making me hope so much and in the end, my hopes are crushed. I even hate my body. Saggy breasts? Fatty? Big ass? I know all that. I wanted to lose weight. But you people told me it's impossible for me.. so yet again, i lost my confidence.. How nice isnt it? All of you have such nice bodies, nice faces, nice everything.. I feel like pulling out from the band.. I don't want to embarrass myself on stage and then, get cussed at. I've had enough of it all. I tried to stay cheerful for as long as possible, but i can't take it anymore. Have you people had enough fun? Enjoy making fun of me? Enjoy torturing me with your comments? Had enough?!!